Frustration

As self-conscious as the following would sound like I'm gonna write it anyway.

If I were to be a mutant, what ability would you have?
I am absolutely envious of Charles Xavier and Jean's abilities. You may take away their ability of being able to change one's mind, but please, I'm devastated to be able to hear what people think inside their head so I would know how everyone think of me as a human being. Low self-confidence and selfish I know. By having this ability, I could potentially be an extremely likable person or an utter hypocrite.

I have always been very loud and ignorant and I believe my personality has gotten me into a lot of "evitable" trouble. My mum has just lectured me. I understand all of her words are for my own good and I should really listen to her, but sometimes I just hate to admit I am wrong. I hate hearing: I told you so. This sentence is completely unnecessary and it is certainly not comforting. Why can't she say something constructive? Our conversation seamlessly came to an end as I headed back to my bedroom. This feels way too high school for me.

Here's a list of things that I do not understand

- Why isn't there a manual on how to behave in office areas? For instance, am I allow to have fun, or am I expected to be constantly in my seat working/procrastinating?

- Why can't I finish my given task in 10 mins whilst other could take 30 mins and chill for the remaining 20 mins? I am getting my work done efficiently and I still have a life. (My mum's right on this one: think from your manager's perspective, would you like to see who you've hired is fooling around?) I understand. But I don't want to.

- What should I say? I've been advised to speak less and my topic should not as sensitive and controversial. Everyone has different standards and each one of us has different background. What sounds harsh on one person may be of no harm to the rest. Am I suppose to just zip up?

This office drama is far too complicated for me, a girl who prefers simplicity.

One of my favorite quotes.

Living in Hong Kong can be quite suffocating sometimes, especially when you have to commute to work on the weekdays and squeeze through endless waves of people. So, going to the suburban area has become quite a popular activity in the weekends!

Last Sunday, me and my friend went to Stanley. It was boiling hot and the sun was literally burning us for the entire time. Nevertheless, it was quite a relaxing afternoon. We had an amazing brunch and we walked around the markets and we even went to two small beaches. We ended up chilling at a really nice cafe for 2 hours because we just could not stand the heat any longer.

Whilst chilling at the cafe, we stumbled upon the gift cards section and here's my favorite quote:

"Watch the sunrise at least once a year, put a lot of marshmallows in your hot chocolate, lie on your back and look at the stars, never buy a coffee table you can't out your feet on, never pass up a chance to jump on a trampoline, don't overlook life's small joys while searching for the big ones" - H. Jackson Brown Jr.

This cannot be more relatable.